2013 ~ Another New Year ~

Well as all of you should know (because if you do then really you have issues) we have now entered the year of 2013. I entered the year in style of course~ down the pub slightly drunk with my boyfriend and his friends~ and according to my boyfriend i spent the first few seconds of the new year on the toilet… which i didn’t… technically i spent it walking out of the toilet door >.> xD

As i said… In Style.

Anyways new years resolutions for this year….hmmm… haven’t really thought of any i suppose ill think of a few and list them now.

  1. Loose Weight – well this one is nothing new, i do this through out the year every year… technically i’m not actually that big, just chubby lol,but either way i don’t like my weight, but then again i don’t even eat that much however cant help my addiction to sweets xD 
  2. Save up enough money to try and get to Japan next year. –once again an every year thing, but this time i actually have a job in which i can save up money from.
  3. Finish my course and sign up for Level 3! –  i will finish it and i will make sure i get a good grade. even if at the moment i’m kinda procrastinating by writing this blog instead of writing my shop report for my course, but that because I’ve been trying to write that thing for a month now and i still don’t fully get what i’m writing…*sighs* i’m hoping we shall have more freedom on our next project in college :/

Well those are my three new years resolutions, nothing i cant push myself to do~ might even have to buy some Alpha Brain so i can focus better on things~ (totally been watching too much Achievement Hunter and Listening way too much to the Rooster Teeth Podcast.. not that this is a bad thing, its my weekly entertainment damn it~! xD)

Anyways i need to get back to doing that dang report. So i shall see you all next post~



Yes another Meme type thing… I’m Bored! So Sue me :P

Actually on second though… Dont sue me. you wouldnt get anything anyways, i have nothing to give xD

Stole from Tumblr… and couldnt be bothered to post it up there as its too much effort :/ lol

Bold what you have done/what is true.


  • I have/had piercings besides the ears.
  • I want piercings besides the ears.
  • I tan easily.
  • I wish my hair was a different color.
  • I have/want a tattoo.
  • I can be self-conscious about my appearance.
  • I have/had braces
  • I have more than two piercings. (ill keep this one bold as ive had more than two peircings [lip & ears])


  • Disney movies still make me cry sometimes. (I Cry at all flipping movies, and dramas, and animes, and tv programmes that i havent even seen the beinging to and have only just watched 20 seconds of it… no joke….)
  • I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
  • I’ve glued my hand to something.
  • I’ve laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose
  • I’ve had my pants rip in public.
  • I’ve touched something sharp/hot/etc to see if it would hurt.


  • I’ve gotten stitches.
  • I’ve broken or dislocated a bone.
  • I’ve had my tonsils removed.
  • I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
  • I’ve had chicken pox


  • I’ve been to Florida.
  • I’ve been on a plane.
  • I’ve been to California.
  • I’ve been to Asia.
  • I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
  • I’ve been to Vanuatu or the Mystery Islands.
  • I’ve been to the Caribbean.
  • I’ve been to Europe. (because I live in it~ and ive been to other places in Europe~)


  • I’ve gotten lost in my city.
  • I’ve seen a shooting star.
  • I’ve wished on a shooting star.
  • I’ve seen a meteor shower.
  • I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
  • I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
  • I’ve slapped someone.
  • I’ve kissed someone underwater.
  • I’ve crashed a car.
  • I’ve been skiing.
  • I’ve been in a musical (does the christmas play at preschool/primary school count? lol)
  • I’ve auditioned for something. (forced to)
  • I’ve been on stage.
  • I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
  • I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.(But i have sat on a roof top)
  • I’ve pranked someone.
  • I’ve ridden in a taxi.

Honesty / Crime

  • I’ve been threatened to be arrested.
  • I’ve broken a law.
  • I’ve done something I promised someone I wouldn’t.
  • I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
  • I’ve snuck out.
  • I’ve lied about my whereabouts.
  • I’ve cheated while playing a game.
  • I’ve been in a fist fight.


  • I’m afraid of dying.
  • I hate funerals.
  • I’ve seen someone/something die. (in real life no… on TV yup)
  • Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.


  • I own over 5 rap CD’s.
  • I’m obsessed with anime/manga.
  • I collected comic books.
  • I own a lot of makeup.
  • I own something from Pac Sun.
  • I own something from The Gap.
  • I own something I got on E-Bay.
  • I own something from Abercrombie.


  • I can sing low key.
  • I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
  • I open up to others easily.
  • I watch the news occasionally or always.
  • I don’t like to kill bugs.
  • I sing in the shower.
  • I’m a morning person.
  • I’m a sports fanatic.
  • I twirl my hair.
  • I care about grammar.
  • I love to spam friends.
  • I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day.
  • I bake well.
  • My favourite colour is either white, yellow, pink, blue, red, black, purple, or orange. (Its Orange… and Green)
  • I would wear pajamas to school.
  • I like Martha Stewart.
  • I laugh at my own jokes.
  • I eat fast food weekly.
  • I’ve not turned something in and still got an A in a certain class.
  • I can’t sleep if there’s a spider in the room.
  • I’m really ticklish.
  • I like white chocolate.
  • I bite/used to bite my nails.
  • I’m good at remembering names.
  • I’m good at remembering dates.
  • I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.


  • ..used to ask if I was anorexic/bulimic.
  • ..called me fat.
  • ..have said I’m skinny.
  • ..have said I’m ugly.
  • ..have said I’m pretty. 
  • ..have spread rumors about me.
  • ..force me to eat.
  • ..say I eat too much.
  • ..say I eat too little.
  • I’ve lost weight.
  • I’ve gained weight.
  • I’m at my thinnest.
  • I’m at my biggest.
  • I’ve lost weight and kept it off.
  • I’ve lost weight, but gained it back.
  • My weight affects my mood.
  • I’m vegan/vegetarian.
  • I exercise. (*Coughs* Sometimes I do… its not an every day thing but i do!)


  • I’ve sworn at my parents. (Not at them… infront of them yes… by accident!)
  • I’ve run away from home.
  • I have a sibling less than one year old.(I used too if that counts? lol ive had 4 siblings under the age of 1 at one point in time xD)
  • I want kids in the future.
  • I’ve had kids.
  • I’ve lost a child.


  • I’m engaged.
  • I’m married.
  • I’m single.
  • I’ve gone on a blind date.
  • I have/had a friend with benefits.
  • I miss someone right now.
  • I have a fear of abandonment.
  • I’ve gotten divorced.
  • I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back. (how many times over does this apply to me? lol)
  • Someone has/had feelings for me when I didn’t have them back.
  • I’ve told someone I loved them/someone when I didn’t. 
  • I’ve told someone/myself I didn’t love someone when I did. (well to be honest… still dont know about this one, cause i cant really say ive been in love :/ *shrugs* as I say on most of these meme’s i dont know what love feels like so how am i supposed to know when im in it?)
  • I’ve been kissed in the rain.
  • I’ve hugged a stranger.
  • I’ve kissed a stranger.

Bad times

  • I regularly drink.
  • I’ve been diagnosed with depression at some point.
  • I have/had anxiety problems.
  • I shut others out when I’m upset.
  • I don’t have anyone to talk to when I’m upset about something personal. (nor do i want anyone to talk to >.>)
  • I have taken/take anti-depressants.
  • I’ve slept an entire day before. (why is this in bad times? this is a good day for me! xD)

Well Fun times were had with this meme. Mighth even post my Arashi meme answers up here too!… then again nobody will apriciate them so maybe not :/

Ah well

Im off to finish watching VS Arashi ~<3




Random Quizzy Thingy~


A: Who do you like and Why? – (Am i answering this is terms of real people anime characters or Celebs? We shall go with Celebs~) At the moment Ninomiya Kazunari, Because hes awesomly cute and Cocky and that just makes me wanna cuddle him even more~ xD

B: Have you ever been in love? If yes, how many times, and how do you know it was love? – Nope~! ive been in Like but tbh, i havent got a clue what love feels like, i figure when i feel it ill know, and i dont think ive felt it yet.

C: Longest relationship you’ve ever been in, and why did it end? – 3 years i think. it ended because it was just too ‘same thing every week’ kinda thing… meh…

D: Have you ever changed for someone, if yes, how? – i did try once, but in the end i decided to forget it. I really dont wanna have to change myself, as in personality wise just to suit someone else.

E: Pretend I’m you ex, what do you want to say to me? – Hi, hows it going?

F: Have you ever been cheated on? – Dunno, If i have its a well hidden secret.

G: Have you ever cheated? Nope~ Im a Good girl! 😛 unless you count kissing/making out one of your close female friends whilst in the same room as your boyfriend cheating but other than that nope~

H: Would you date someone who’s know for cheating, if yes why? – Probably not.

I: What’s the most important part of a relationship? – Adventure and Cuddle/Make out time ;P

J: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? – Tbh im still not sure, i kinda think it depends on the person.

K: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on “breaks”? – nope. its just the equvilent of breaking up with someone for a little amount of time and then getting back together, you obviously broke up/went on a break for a reason, and that reasons not neccicarally going to dissaper you’ll just end up in the same position you were before the breakup/break :/

L: How many people have you ever hooked up with? – not sure bout this question but im assuming it means how manypople youve either dated or slept with ne? i would say 5 people.

M: What’s one thing you regret saying or not saying, doing or not doing in a previous relationship? – *srugs* i dont remembe nor can i think of anything i would have said :/

N: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex? – 16-17

O: Do you believe in the phrase, “Age is just a number?” Why or why not? depends on the situation. and i could gto on long about it, but im not gonna.

P: What about “Love at first sight”? Why or why not? – Havent experienced it so i cant say i do or dont belive in it.

Q:Turn on’s? – Neck nibbling/light biting

R: Turn off’s? – cant think of any atm.

S: What do you consider a deal breaker?– Why Sir… i do say your question makes no sense to me what so ever~

T: How do you know it’s time to end a relationship? – well you kinda just know if thing arnt really going well… however, im definatly not confident enough to break up a relationship so i genrally wait for the other person to do it~

U: Are you currently in a relationship? If yes, for how long? If no, how long have you been single ? – yeh i am. and about 10 Months. Wow. Almost a year…

V: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?- i would like to think so, me and my ex and still friends… even if it can be a bit akward sometimes.

W: Do you think people should date their friends? – well i kinda do and dont now, i do because you already feel comfertable with the person and you know alot about them already, and i dont because if you break up, it can get very awkward around mutual friends and between yourselves too…

X: How many relationships have you had? –  4

Y: Do you think love can last forever?-  to be compleatly honest… sometimes i dont think it can. but then again, all i see around me is broken relationships genrally, so what else am i supposed to think. Maybe its Rare and out there somewhere but i just havent seen people staying in love for a long period of time.

Z: Do you believe love can conquer all things? – no. i belive hardword can conquer all things. Love is just an emotion, it doesnt genrally do work for you, you have to do the work for yourself.

Wow i have a really depressing way of thinking…. Oh well.




Pocky and all things Sweet.

Okay… as my nickname online is PockyKai, i figured… why not do a post about Pocky and other Sweets ^^ … yes i have time on my hands… what of it? 😛

Okay lets start on Pocky.

Pocky a definition from wikipedia for those who dont know what it is… “Pocky was first sold in 1966,and consists of a biscuit stick coated with chocolate.”

Simple Ne?

tho if you are reading my blog and didnt have a clue what pocky was untill you read that here is a virtual slap in the face *SLAPS FACE* YOU FAIL!

Alright, as we know… or should know, Pocky comes in a varity of flavours and is distrbuted worldwide in a varity of names. like over here in the UK we have ‘Mikado‘ (wait according to wikipedia… thats the name for pocky in Europe >> fail by me there…) which by the way… Tastes like crap. I dont know weather its my lack of love for plain chocolate pocky or the fact that…it tastes like crap… but meh…

anyhu heres are my top 5 fave pocky 🙂

5. Milk Flavour Pocky♥
milk pocky Pictures, Images and Photos

4. Banana and Chocolate Flavour Pocky♥♥
Chocolate and Banana flavour pocky

3. Straberry Flavour Pocky♥♥♥
Strawberry flavour pocky

2. Chocolate and Banana Desert Pocky♥♥♥♥
Banana and chocolate dessert Pocky

1. Strawberry Desert Pocky ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Strawberry dessert pocky

I havent had Strawberry Desert Pocky is AGES! and its my Absolute fave Pocky! TwT so sad… and there doesnt seem to be anywhere that sells it in london anymore… or anywhere that ive seen >.<  if anyones knows anywhere then please tell moi~!

Anyways moving onto regular Sweets that are sold over here in the UK :3

Top 5 UK sweets

5. Skittles

Fruity and Chewy and RAINBOW!!!! CAN YOU TASTE THE RAINBOW?! I CAN!! ;D

4. Jelly Tots

Ahhh me and these sweets had good times when i was young, i dont have them as often as i did then, now, but i shall never forget the memories…. XD

3. Fruitella

“im too sexy…” XD i totally miss that advert, i do kinda just love fruitella because of that advert LOL

2. Magic Stars

Magic Stars, are chocolate stars with different faces on them and they all have different names! who could ask for more as a kid?… or now for that matter!!! xD Well they did have faces on them… i just realised, recently the faces have seemed to have gone missing… 😦 Phooey 😦

1. Kinder Maxi

Gah Kinda Maxi is just hte YUMMIEST (yes thats a word) CHOCO IN THE WORLD!!!!!!  and it makes an AWESOME milkshake too!!! xD

Well there is my Pocky & Sweets Post xD random but Awesome none the less ;P

Alright well ive got some reading to do, and then some reveiwing to do too lol so keep an eye out for new blog posts 🙂



My Bedroom & Man Wall!

LOL well im finally gonna put a blog post up with my  bedroom on it! … everyne does that Otacool thing… but i dont think my bedroom would really qualify for it, soooo i decided to just do a blog post instead… and GOD THIS LAPTOP IS SO FUCKIN SHIT AND SLOW!!!! >.>

Anyway…. First up we have! -:
My Anime Wall! … yeah it took alot of effort to get those posters near to the top of my wall! there was aLOT of climbing invovoled xD aparently… i likw Katekyo Hitman Reborn! alot xD i seem to have more posters of that anime than any other nooowww if only i could get a poster with 182769 on it (Hibari x Tsuna x Mukuro) *Drools*

Then we have Pt 2 to my anime wall… yeah theres a Pt 2 lol all the posters didnt fit on that one wall *fail*

Lot of Gundam Seed/Destiny Characters on thi wall lol yeah i had a phase… still love Athrun too :3

Next up :-
Oh yeah ive named it.
because i win!
and the man wall is hot.
That was the Whole of the Man Wall!

This Part of the Man wall has all my Fave Actors or Singers on… Especally Seto Koji… I *heart* Seto Koji! HEs just so damn cute!
And this Part of the Man wall i like to call My Johneys & Visual Kei side ^^ because thats what it is, Tis where i have my An Cafe & Miyavi Pics, along with MY Jonheys Entertainment Boys ^^ (i only like the older Johneys boy bands, Such as KAT-TUN, NEWS & ARASHI)

Ahhhh *sighs* i love my Man wall :3

Anyways Moving on :-
Obligitory Picture of Bed lol & My Teddy Bear (Yes i have a Teddy Bear >.>) Hiei 🙂

My Desk/Mirror/Draws/Shelves for Manga, Dolls & Fiures & Doujinshi :3
Close up

Secret Hide away spot for my Sewing Machine ^^

and Lastly Ma TV, Dvds, CDs, Games , Xbox, PS2 and all the other stuff that doesnt/Cant fit anywhere else in my room! xD


Well there you have it! My Room! and MAN WALL! XD

Well ive got washing up to do so im out! :3

Catch ya later!



Well… This topic just pouted into my head recently and i thought to myself… wow why havent i written about this before! XD

By now… ive gone through so many, im honestly suprised that i never know what to do when another one arises.

Though then again im not that surprised, im more of a ‘keep emotions to yourself’ type of a person. I find it very difficult to tell the person that i like that i like them. So much so that it annoys my dad, haha, seriously it does. and i tend to bottle it all up inside and let it out in storys instead. Thats why half of my oringal storys or even my fanfictions they tend to be based on my own situations and how i would like things to turn out (Besides ‘The Promise’…that one was a story ive been wanting to write for a while… that has nothing to do with me!!! xD) But the Majority of the time thats not the way things turn out and in the end they are only what they started out as. Storys.

In the end of each of my crushes, ive either told the person i like them, or a friend does… >.> yeah seriously im that shy when it comes to this stuff… then again i dont tell them to tell the person, they just tend to without me knowing lol. and at the end of each one, each and eveyone one of them and rejected me. T_T…seriously though… it hurts, and each time it made me more afriad of rejection, so now even if i like someone i refuse to say it unless, it comes out accidentally or im drunk or something.

Well… What a lovely sort of depressing first proper post on my new blog this is! xD oh well…a new and nicer post will probably be up later, with me all hyped up about something or other!

Anyways im out.